earlier times

i wonder
sometimes,
if i've changed enough
for you,
or them,
or whoever is looking
back at me,
through the stars
and the moon
and the sun,
and
time,

and then i realize
that all i'll ever need is right here. no breaks, no quakes, no forced emotion. the pain is real but the joy is alive. the gain is real and the ploy is a lie. so let's lie here forever.