darling

darling, sing me to sleep
i am caught
between
wet sidewalk, an open window
my overactive radiator
the ache
of saying calmly
"goodbye"
to so many futures,
so torn from
the simple peace of
loving freely
no: being free to love
wrenched from that
by apoplectic winter
storming ceaselessly
crying
mercilessly
i am stuck awake
floating between futures
begging for your song
to call me
down.